righttttttt!! ...bagaimana harus aku memilih???!!!

ok.i 've been telling myself.just get over it.and i did.
meaning,i have gave up a chance to work for my client.no matter how they(gs) wants me,the legal contract wants me to leave my current employer(a vendor to gs ) for a year ,serve a cooling period for a year ,then only i can apply any position.we have tried few ways to bring myself there.came into legal paper,seems its difficult.end of story.and my employer have play their part not to loose me,offered me perm,and give me extra bonus with a clause,if i leave before august 2008,i have to return the bonus to them.pethetic sangat kan!!

right.

half a year later..
so,i have decided,since gs is not in my option,i find my own way.join other bank.,and finally i have decided to take up of the offer and i have SIGNED!!! it and campak surat resign to my boss.

NOW,the news about i am leaving my current place spread to client(boss have to announce it to big boss sana..),AND,NOW,they called me...and..
the keyword is now,since u are laving ,now gs become one of your option,let us deal with legal things,we will work on your package,but you have to decide quickly because you need to give ample time to your new employer that u have signed earlier that you turning down the offer.

WHAT????!!!
and i have less than 24 hours to let gs know the answer!

oh..right!!

so if i say yes..meaning..

i can eat krispykreme everyday,because working location is tokyo.

oh god!!..why ahhhh..things that i really really WANT always come at the wrong timing.
how de hell i can turn down (after sign it,legally its ok you know,not a hassle) to my future boss,because,my future boss,me,gs ..all of us knowing each other.ALL OF US.we been work together before.and we are all in good relationship.this is a difficult part.if i donno my future boss..well..easier.

point...
choose between what/where u really want to go and do (after i have give up) AND relationship kemanusiaan dan tanggung jawab sebab aku dah commit to that new project.damn!


why oh why.

which shall i choose?

..often said,opportunity only come once.